Enemies was one of those songs that took a little time to come out, lyric wise. I was trying to find the words to accurately tell how I felt, and the internal struggle that I was feeling.
It's one thing when you're fighting with the elements around you, but it's an entirely different beast when you're fighting with yourself, internally.
I remember, on many days - the four walls felt like they were closing in, and those nasty negative voices in the back of my head that I tried so hard to keep at bay, weren't in the back of my head anymore. They had taken over and I was "lost/confused," like the lyrics state. I felt dead inside.
During that time, I was looking everywhere for answers except inward. I had been looking at things a certain way for most of my life, and finally had realized that changes must come from within, first. Once one does that, they can look outward and start to change everything else.
Easier said than done, right? Right. Something like this didn't happen over night. When you brick yourself in with your darkest feelings, and live with monsters inside your head - when they see you start to kick and figure out ways to get out of this feeling that you yourself got yourself in, they are going to get in your way. They are going to tell you that you aren't good enough. They will claw at you.
In the end, it's really up to you to pick yourself up. It's okay to cry. It's okay to break down. I did. I did right in front of my producer, and I felt better after. I needed to express my feelings and talk to someone. I needed how I felt to be known, and lifted by my own acknowledgement out loud. I know that this is deep shit, trust me.
What I want you take from this is, as hard as it is - let people in that you trust. Don't self-sabotage yourself. Care about yourself. Don't let those horrible voices in the back of your head dictate how you act and feel.
IT'S YOUR LIFE. FOCUS YOUR ENERGY ON BETTERING YOURSELF AND OTHERS AROUND YOU. LOVE YOURSELF.
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